Are you being a victim to your past self?
You don’t need to be a victim of anyone or anything, including your past self.
It can feel safer and easier to hide behind guilt, self-blame, and other old stories. Your true power lies in your willingness to own that you are fully capable of growing and serving at higher and higher levels, regardless of your past mistakes.
What fear has been keeping you from giving yourself the grace you need to begin again and make a more significant difference?