There was no right answer
It feels easy to fantasize about the choice you should have or could have made that would have ensured that life would be perfect right now. However, we have no idea what would be happening right now even if you had made the choice you wish you had, or if x, y, or z hadn’t happened. It simply feels easier to live in the fantasy of what could have been than to take responsibility for our lives right now.
The nature of life is that it is imperfect, no matter what. Every choice, action, and decision has downsides. Our happiness comes from realizing that imperfection is perfect, which is how this whole thing was designed. The thing we are looking for, wishing we could rewrite the past, is right here if we choose to show up right now with awe and wonder for this imperfectly perfect miracle called life.
What might be possible if you, and all of us, took responsibility for the present rather than hiding in the past?